In this moment of time, I felt sad in the sense that all I wanted is not to hear the message from the speaker nor from God. All I wanted is just to rest and sleep. So funny yet so bad but this is how I felt. It is as if I am still floating in the air, no directions, no intentions and no motivations at all. All I wanted is just to go to my bedroom and sleep.
Depression? Oh No! I think it is not. Tired maybe but it is a product of self-disorientation from home. I'm tired of thinking for everything. I'm tired of doing nothing. I am already lifeless..Fortunately, I remember one of my classmate before when I had a retreat workshop in Cebu and I quote "It's normal for a person to feel such as long as he/she is aware of what's going on inside him/her". The most important thing is the desire.
Yes, speaking of desire "All I need is actually God! All I need is to let God disturb me right now! I want God to intervene my own comfort, that He will slap my face so I can wake up from my sleepiness and come to focus myself only to Him. Ohh...Lord! Please disturb me in Your Presence!
