The Silent Noise of Innocence

So many times that I said maybe.  So many times that I said no.  So many moments that  I have had to choose.  So many later that never came to pass.  Then- but only then – comes the moment of choice, of acceptance, of the yes or no.  One thing, however, is certain: until I have accepted the truth and said Yes to the voice that calls within.  A call of hope, endurance, trust, humility, sacrifice, patience and faith.  However, responding unto it made me become more restless and disturbed because I felt something is missing. As I keep on searching for the answer to what lies ahead of me, I took risks in dealing with relationships, I took the courage to understand the things around me until I discovered something in the  greater scheme of things.  The answer cannot be found anywhere but deep within.  Then, as I went back to myself and see my face in the mirror, it was a shame to realize that I failed to give what is supposed to be given.  The unconditional love from God  for my neighbor.

Four Seasons in Life

One Sunday morning while I was sitting in the sala of our formation house watching the rain outside, a thought came to my mind.  I am so excited to experience the different seasons of the year here in Italy especially the cool breeze of winter season to see the snow.  Unlike the Philippines, we only had wet and dry seasons.  Imagining myself of what I will be feeling as the season changes makes me think of relating this to some points in my life.

I have come up with a conclusion that somehow we could also compare these seasons in our spiritual journey. It was such a crazy thing to compare but it does not mean because we are on the summer season, the feelings are the same but it is just an example that sometimes in life we felt such, either today, tomorrow or the day after.  Life’s circumstances is unpredictable because God works in a mysterious and miraculous ways.

I THOUGHT

I thought  I am okay

I thought I am strong

 I thought I can forgive easily

I thought I can easily let go

I thought I am healed

I thought I have liberated myself from the past

I thought I can already move on.

I thought because I smile, I am okay

I thought because I am healthy, I am strong

I thought because I laughed, I am not in pain

I thought because I know how to love, I have already forgave

I thought because I let God, I have let go.

I thought because I live the present moment, I have already liberated from the past.

I thought because I dreamed, I have already move forward.

I thought because I can sing, I am already free.