For Eleven years I left home. For eleven years I left my family, my friends and my love ones. For eleven years I broke the hearts of the two men I love. For eleven years I died to myself, my wants, my ambitions and stepped on the greatest desire that cries in the central fortress of my soul...to be with my King!
I detached and forget everything and let myself absorbed in Him...in His Love...in His will..in His hands...though many times i struggled, cried, and wanted to give up and go back to the pleasures of yesterdays but He keeps on telling me "You are mine". The self you yearn to be, but fear to know. The world from which you flee in Me find home. All these I give you, if you remain in Me. I am always with you and be faithful to you forever....today those words are still fresh on my ears.
There were many times i run in shame because there were moments that I wanted to go back to the embrace of those two men I love for they were always waiting for me everyday. Sometimes when i find life hard and difficult, i would whisper "my beloved" to rest in Your embrace I cannot feel, to dwell in Your love hurting but sweet ...but because I love you and you are already my spouse and my life...I promise to be with you to glimpse eternity.
Knowing my chosen life, the two men understood, yes they suffered because they needed me and I needed them but they respected my decision- because they wanted me to be happy and because they love me. These two men are my Father and my brother! Thanks for your love!
Just to remember that today I entered religious life as an aspirant in the congregation where I belong. I thank the Lord for His faithfulness to me.
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